Ever since I started this journey it's been very hard to focus. I have had so many dreams of having the surgery and not lose weight. I think I have been dreaming this everyday for the last week. I think the biggest one is the fear of failure. I have been down this road before of being so ready and willing to take control of my weight and then come to the point where I just fail. I'm constantly researching everything I can possibly find out about the process, but there are still so many questions that are unanswered.
I have tried to chew my food 20 times...OMG can I tell you how hard that is? My jaw hurts so much from chewing. I'm doing it to make sure I get myself in the habit of what is to come. I can't seem to incorporate my fruits and vegetables. I wonder if maybe I can take a vitamin supplement? Will have to look into that. I then have been told of stories of people failing. Ugh, that is the last thing that I need to hear at this time, but then again are these people really trying? Or did they come into this thinking it was a quick fix and didn't have to work at it? Really wonder sometimes...
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