Happy New Year 2012 and I'm back and ready to reach my goal!

I know, I know......who is this person blogging? Many of you that followed me are probably asking...who is this again? It has been a long while that I had posted anything. In March of last year I had finally reached my 100 lb weight loss and of course got into a little derailment of ice cream, burgers and fries. Holidays came and went. With 8 extra lbs on me, I now want to reach my ultimate goal of losing 110 lbs. That means I need to get back to basics and lose 18 lbs. I don't have a set time frame, but definitely want it to be done by summer time. I know it's easier said than done, but I am really motivated. Will power somehow showed it's head again.

I literally sat and read my blog to remind me how I felt when I first started blogging and how miserable I was at 260 lbs. Gaining these 10 lbs honestly feels like I have gained all 100 lbs back because I am falling into the same old destructive patterns. I will continue blogging and with my blog followers, I know that I will be able to keep this momentum going.

Wish me luck and will write to you soon!
♥xoxo♥
Maria

Christmas Picture of my family!

I need an intervention!!!

Help! How do I get myself to stop eating everything in sight!!! I have been horrible since the last time I blogged. I think that getting away from blogging and not visiting the other lapband websites to keep me motivated has really cause me to loose track of anything. I cannot for the life of me get a grip on getting back to eating the way I used to. Can some one please come smack me upside the head? I have gained 9 lbs back and although a lot of you might say it's not that bad compared to the 100 lbs originally lost, I don't want the 9 to become 15, then 20lbs and so on and so forth!

I'm committing myself here today to start working out and really get a hold of my eating again. Why is it becoming so hard again? I cannot get any more fills because just .25cc's will make me so tight that water will not go down. It is now really a matter of just really going back to basics. Does anyone else have this issue? How did you overcome and get yourself back on track?

Definitely forever a work in progress!!!

Just call me the muffin gal!

I went on another little shopping spree that my hubby took me this past weekend and I am proud to say that I fit in a size 8 pants well at least from New York and Company. I feel like because NY&C is more of a women's store than a teen store, that the sizes are a bit more realistic for the curvy woman I am. The only problem of course is that because they fit a bit snug, but I am determined to stay in them I now suffer from muffin top!!! Which then in turn makes me feel like a cow! 100 lbs gone and I still feel like a cow?

Well let's just say that I guess that has given me some motivation to start working out again. Maybe if I can reduce the muffin top and fit in an 8 comfortably I can finally hit the 10 more lbs that I would like to lose. So what happens when I get there? Will I then go and try a size 6 and start the muffin top all over? This may just never end!

Until next time! ♥xoxo♥

Proud to wear dresses...

Just a couple weeks ago I had a friends wedding to attend and was very excited to finally wear a dress in a very long time. I went dress shopping and ended up with 2 dresses that I fell in love with...below is a picture of one of them. It is just a huge difference looking at my before picture and now. It really shows what a long way I have come!

I did it! I finally hit my 100 lb loss and it feels amazing...such a huge accomplishment!

10 more lbs to go per my Dr's recommendation. I knew I could do it, just never imagined getting there! Love the feeling. Below are my pictures!

Back again! Fill #6

So, let's try this one more time...As you all know from my last fill experience I was a little iffy going back and getting a fill. That feeling was definately not something I wish on anyone...

I went in yesterday to get a fill as I was getting close to being able to eat a whole cow...ok not really, but it sure felt like I wanted to eat everything in sight. So, the Dr gave me a 0.5cc fill. He pretty much left me back to where I was at before that horrible fill. Hopefully, I can appreciate this fill and be good to get to my goal...12 more lbs and I am there. Now if I can only get Will to come back in my life???

I'm hoping that I can vacation again this summer, so I definately need to get summer ready! Oh! did I mention that I tried the P90X for a minute and I was dying for the next week! Every single muscle in my body was aching and breaking! O Lord! never again will I try that...I am sticking to my Zumba. I also just got the Biggest Loser for the Wii and will be trying that out!

Until next time all!! ♥xoxo♥

Unfill Again!!

So as many of you may know that being too tight is definitely not the most fun. I could not sleep, eat, drink or relax. Acid reflux, cough and regurgitating were some of the symptoms I was experiencing.

I finally was able to contact my dr and make an emergency appt to get an unfill. So he removed another .75cc making me now 2 cc total in my band. he had originally filled me with .5cc, but at this point I don't care. As soon as I left the Dr's office I ran to El Pollo Loco and ate! I was starving. It has been a whole week without eating any solids without them coming right back up. As of this morning I could not even have my protein shake. Everyone was telling me that I was getting this sick look on my face, not the healthy glow that I had been seen with in the last couple of months, so that got me more worried.

So far it seems like I am feeling much better. My weight at the Dr's office was 162! I need 12 more lbs to goal!

until next time ♥xoxo♥