I need an intervention!!!

Help! How do I get myself to stop eating everything in sight!!! I have been horrible since the last time I blogged. I think that getting away from blogging and not visiting the other lapband websites to keep me motivated has really cause me to loose track of anything. I cannot for the life of me get a grip on getting back to eating the way I used to. Can some one please come smack me upside the head? I have gained 9 lbs back and although a lot of you might say it's not that bad compared to the 100 lbs originally lost, I don't want the 9 to become 15, then 20lbs and so on and so forth!

I'm committing myself here today to start working out and really get a hold of my eating again. Why is it becoming so hard again? I cannot get any more fills because just .25cc's will make me so tight that water will not go down. It is now really a matter of just really going back to basics. Does anyone else have this issue? How did you overcome and get yourself back on track?

Definitely forever a work in progress!!!

Just call me the muffin gal!

I went on another little shopping spree that my hubby took me this past weekend and I am proud to say that I fit in a size 8 pants well at least from New York and Company. I feel like because NY&C is more of a women's store than a teen store, that the sizes are a bit more realistic for the curvy woman I am. The only problem of course is that because they fit a bit snug, but I am determined to stay in them I now suffer from muffin top!!! Which then in turn makes me feel like a cow! 100 lbs gone and I still feel like a cow?

Well let's just say that I guess that has given me some motivation to start working out again. Maybe if I can reduce the muffin top and fit in an 8 comfortably I can finally hit the 10 more lbs that I would like to lose. So what happens when I get there? Will I then go and try a size 6 and start the muffin top all over? This may just never end!

Until next time! ♥xoxo♥

Proud to wear dresses...

Just a couple weeks ago I had a friends wedding to attend and was very excited to finally wear a dress in a very long time. I went dress shopping and ended up with 2 dresses that I fell in love with...below is a picture of one of them. It is just a huge difference looking at my before picture and now. It really shows what a long way I have come!

I did it! I finally hit my 100 lb loss and it feels amazing...such a huge accomplishment!

10 more lbs to go per my Dr's recommendation. I knew I could do it, just never imagined getting there! Love the feeling. Below are my pictures!

Back again! Fill #6

So, let's try this one more time...As you all know from my last fill experience I was a little iffy going back and getting a fill. That feeling was definately not something I wish on anyone...

I went in yesterday to get a fill as I was getting close to being able to eat a whole cow...ok not really, but it sure felt like I wanted to eat everything in sight. So, the Dr gave me a 0.5cc fill. He pretty much left me back to where I was at before that horrible fill. Hopefully, I can appreciate this fill and be good to get to my goal...12 more lbs and I am there. Now if I can only get Will to come back in my life???

I'm hoping that I can vacation again this summer, so I definately need to get summer ready! Oh! did I mention that I tried the P90X for a minute and I was dying for the next week! Every single muscle in my body was aching and breaking! O Lord! never again will I try that...I am sticking to my Zumba. I also just got the Biggest Loser for the Wii and will be trying that out!

Until next time all!! ♥xoxo♥

Unfill Again!!

So as many of you may know that being too tight is definitely not the most fun. I could not sleep, eat, drink or relax. Acid reflux, cough and regurgitating were some of the symptoms I was experiencing.

I finally was able to contact my dr and make an emergency appt to get an unfill. So he removed another .75cc making me now 2 cc total in my band. he had originally filled me with .5cc, but at this point I don't care. As soon as I left the Dr's office I ran to El Pollo Loco and ate! I was starving. It has been a whole week without eating any solids without them coming right back up. As of this morning I could not even have my protein shake. Everyone was telling me that I was getting this sick look on my face, not the healthy glow that I had been seen with in the last couple of months, so that got me more worried.

So far it seems like I am feeling much better. My weight at the Dr's office was 162! I need 12 more lbs to goal!

until next time ♥xoxo♥

unfilled!!!

So I went to my dr's office and got a bit of an unfil apparently maybe .25 cc's out of my band. I'm still on liquids, but at least I was able to sleep last night and no more choking on my saliva. I will be doing a couple more days of liquids and then try to go on solids and see how that goes. I hope this does it if not I will have to remove more. This is the first time ever that I have had such a horrible feeling with the band. It is not fun at all!!

Will keep you posted on my progress. The plus side is that I have lost about 3 lbs with this ordeal, but not a fun way of losing the weight.

On the bright side, after my dr's appt I went to the mall and tried on some dresses..I fit in a size 10 dress!!!! OMG I felt fabulous!

until next time ♥XOXO♥